If anyone reads this, you will probably think i'm odd, as many people do. :) Im a sick-minded 16 yr old that has a best friend that is a girl.
I used to want to go out with her, but that has sorta past. She comes over everyday after school, even though she has a boyfriend. Her boyfriend is in the air force and in a distant state. She never even talks to him. He bought her a cell phone and never calls her on it. Its weird. I know she likes me as a friend, but she always asks me if she should break up with him. Personally, i don't really care for him, and if he was here, instead of stationed off somewhere, i doubt they would still be going out. As you can see, i dont really care for her b/f at all. It has been about 6mo. since they have been "going out", even though hes been gone for 5mo. Yeah, thats weird, huh?!

Here's the deal with me- im easy to get along with, but i don't make an effort to see my friends after school. For some reason, i find it nice to just be a loner once and a while. I don't have guy friends because i just sorta stray from them. it is really hard to explain.

But anyway, my friend (the one i was talking about) comes over all the time to do h/w with me. We have pre-cal together and sometimes i feel like she just uses me for help. I shouldn't be selfish or anything, but really, sometimes i feel like that. I dont know if she really likes me the way i used to like her. I think my feelings toward her fizzled out when she started talking about "him" all of the time. She doesn't do that anymore, i don't think she has real feelings for him, but she just goes along with it even though they haven't actually talked in weeks. (by the way, nothing is stopping him from calling)

From the way im typing, you would think im obsessed, but its actually the opposite. Now, when she comes over, its like it doesn't make a difference to me if she was even there or not. I don't really care.
I love her as a friend, but I don't think I think of her the same way as I once did; thats my problem.

my friends are girls, which is my main problem. I flirt w/ them constantly, but they let me in so close, like they don't see me as a guy. If there is a girl i like, im not afraid to talk to her, so i end up being friends and then i don't see her as a possibility anymore. its depressing...